How to not be jealous

I have a beautiful girlfriend. Everything about her is simply put, amazing. Her outlook on life is seemingly one of a kind and has a phenomenal way of going about her life. She is selfless and I would go as far as to claim she is pure of heart and soul. Kind, compassionate, understanding and willing to go out of her way to help others. She is talented to nearly all ends and is frighteningly brilliant. When she smiles the room is utterly captivated by her elegant aura. Last but not least, she has a gorgeous figure.

And with such an amazing girlfriend, you have the trouble of having to fend off a seemingly never ending force of men and sometimes women who want her. It is frustrating, difficult and tiresome. But, despite this, you should not and in my opinion can not let this get inside your head and get the better side of who you are. I know that there are several guys who are close to her who call themselves friends, but I know at any moment if she and I were to have a hard situation in our relationship, they would drop whatever they are doing and strive to be at her beck and call and try to replace me at all cost or deal with being friendzoned and try another day.

It sucks. Knowing that you know their true intentions and why they are there. Their sights set so keenly so, lustfully imagining what they will about what they would do with her, or fantasizing what they would do together.

You can't worry yourself with this. Because she is with you, or he is with you, and you are with them. You love your relationship partner, and they love you, or if you aren't at that love point yet you are there enough for one another. I trust her better judgement and will not dare say that she can't hang out with *insert name* or *insert group* because I do not control her life and she doesn't control mine. We live with trust, believe in being honest and forthcoming with one another and will fight to make what we have last, while living each day in harmony and happiness.

End rant, I'm tired.

You know what pisses me off? Family. I haven't had much over the years, but god damn. What's left hurts, and it shouldn't be that way. Instead of trying to be there they just give up  on me, and I should try to not generalize everyone but one in particular, my older brother. Step brother, which I don't mind saying at this point. Lately he's been a real dick to me, and its getting to me and I should not let it. Never does he ever compliment or congratulate me on anything I make (I'm an artist here) and when I do anything wrong he jumps at it like flies on a fresh pile of shit and just mocks me about it. Fuck him. He left my life before, granted that he was more or less not allowed to see me anymore, and I was fine, I'll be fine now if I take him out of the picture. I haven't seen him in about a year, and a long time ago I really looked up to him, thought he was the bee's knees and that he was the greatest fucking human being in my life. Now it turns out he is just a festering wart on my ass that just goes out of his way to make my day shit. Fuck him, I don't need him and I don't want him in my life. He doesn't try to communicate with me or if he does he just insults me and brings me down. I don't need that right now, or ever. I would understand constructive criticism, but this isn't the case at all. It sucks. Him and my sister are all I really have left and that is close to me, everyone else is relatively out of the picture and too far to do any good so to speak. Once again, I'm feeling alone and hating it. It doesn't matter where I would have gone or stayed, shit would have hit the fan, but moving to Sacramento has been such an amazing experience, and I've met amazing and wonderful people out here, and I don't need a family to enjoy my life. I'll just be alone, a hermit. Be to myself but love others and if they don't share love back then that is fine, I'm moving on. I don't linger anymore, I learned from doing that and watching others do that. All I can do is move on but god damn. Fuck, this hurts.